{"id":81,"date":"2002-03-25T17:38:00","date_gmt":"2002-03-25T23:38:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/?p=81"},"modified":"2010-10-19T14:58:21","modified_gmt":"2010-10-19T19:58:21","slug":"81","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/?p=81","title":{"rendered":"Weekend Regret"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><b>it&#8217;s all on and gone<\/b> &#8212; we&#8217;re feeling more human now, though last night (she said, oh baby i feel so down) as i cooked my steaknnoodles, never left my pajamas, flipped between oscars and sfu and home movies, <i>never left my pajamas<\/i> i realized that the source of the angst was:<br \/>\n<\/p>\n<ul>\n<br \/>a. far too much drinking over the weekend<br \/>\n<br \/>b. far too much game\/tv on sunday<br \/>\n<br \/>c. nobody to call to come sit in pajamas too.<br \/>\n<\/ul>\n<p>but that&#8217;s the way the world goes. who&#8217;s to say who&#8217;s right anymore?<\/p>\n<p><b>new cycle of life<\/b> &#8212; build up, let out, feel guilty. chase new, let out, feel guilty. ashamed of myself. this is personally encoded.<\/p>\n<p><b>the lesson i learned<\/b> &#8212; once the bullshit filter is turned off, you start to see a lot of things. and once you&#8230;stop filtering your own bullshit, you become yourself again. this is very liberating, and you start to see what might have happened had you gotten too comfortable. i wonder if it goes both ways&#8230;. you realize you got very lucky and you make the decision:<\/p>\n<ul><b>to never let yourself get comfortable that quickly again.<\/b><\/ul>\n<p>because remember what happened last time?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>it&#8217;s all on and gone &#8212; we&#8217;re feeling more human now, though last night (she said, oh baby i feel so down) as i cooked my steaknnoodles, never left my pajamas, flipped between oscars and sfu and home movies, never left my pajamas i realized that the source of the angst was: a. far too [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[74],"class_list":["post-81","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-weekend"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=81"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/81\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=81"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=81"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.illinoir.com\/wp\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=81"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}